Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Am I on the right SEAT?

if you were to ask me how much I love my job.
I would say: It's the best I've found, and I've learned the most, and see the most.
But... still ... my whole team was struggling...
Interesting part of my job was the meeting with different people.
as I'm selling service to others, some are trying to sell theirs to myself. how ironic is it!!
some invite me to attend talks, some asking me to join insurance, and some even buy me a gift, persuading me to join direct sales..
there is one particular customer that i remember the most, the one that present me a book, titled: "Are you on the right SEAT"
I've kept the book in my bag for months, and finally i give a little peek on it... and it caught my interest to finish the whole book...
the interesting stories in the book reminds me of what we all facing nowadays, particularly to me.
there is no such thing as easy job...always be ready, be prepare, as the opportunity will come to you one day.
Many of us doubted, hesitated whether we are on the right position?right job?right way?!
our surrounding made us even more doubtful of what we are doing now...
but i m sure... some how... persistence... will lead its way to success... Agree?

Sunday, February 19, 2012

It's all my fault...

I should have done better to protect whom I loves...
But instead, I failed everyone...

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Childhood Friend. =)

Found this quote in facebook not long ago. "cousins are usually the 1st friends we have as children"
I've shared it, to see if people feel the same way as I did.
and YES, it's so true that most of us had gone through the same life progress.

though everyone re busying with their own life now.
but, do hope that we still can maintain the closeness we have built.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Best memories of 2011

To me, 2011 will always be a year to remember as it was the most memorable year in my life.

I couldn’t believe that I can realize my Old Trafford dream so soon and attended Paul Scholes last match in Red.

I couldn't believe that I’m just sitting in front of Effel Tower, have a date with Mona Lisa.

I couldn’t believe that I even get a chance to sit in a cathedral which the Royal Wedding took place, and visiting the palace.

I never thought of having these chances though, it’s my family that makes it happen for me!

And the last part of 2011, I met my new employer, which gives me chances and opportunities to grow.

At the beginning of the year, I'm so uncertain about my future...but friends and family doesn't stop support, encourage and believes in me. I appreciate every single words from them.

In 2012, my resolution is very simple, which is to do the best in what I do, and make it even better year than 2011. The last result I got is disappointing though. I shouldn't let that happen ever again.

As 2011 closing to the end, I began to miss all the place that I went during the summer, all the things I do during the summer, and all the friends that I met during the summer.

took this picture on our way back from Whitby.

one of the Best Picture of 2011.

This is where we live, summer 2011, Merseyside, Liverpool

Old Trafford Manchester with 75,000 crowds August 2011

One night in Paris

So, what so famous about Mona Lisa smile? Her eyes and smile that makes the perfect portrait

the Westminster Abbey

reaching the Buckingham Palace backyard at the end of tour

the familiar Palace front gate

the Change of Guard

St. Paul Cathedral

Big Ben

the Roman Bath cathedral

Swans feeding at Lake District

Whitby road trip June 2011

Stonehedge, one of the 7 wonders ?

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Yup, it's monday again.

I think Sunday night was kinda moody to everyone, especially working adult.
I felt the same way when I was a typical 8-5, "clock watcher" employee.
Now, I feel more or less the same too. But different thing is that, I'm passionate to see out what is going to happen tomorrow, the 1st day of the week.
A wonderful start of the week might makes the whole week meaningful,that's what I told myself.
It's very challenging in what I'm doing now, which requires high level of attention to detail.
Made lots of mistake in my 1st attempt! but learn from the process.
Seriously needed to improve my organising skill.
Yes, 1 month goes...
should be doing even better on the 2nd, and gets better on the 3rd...
that's what it supposed to be, and it will be!!!
make it a good ending for 2011 !! It's a fortnight to NEW YEAR!!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Post-Study Life

Year end coming soon...
everyone start clearing leaves, taking holidays, traveling etc.
whereas me, myself were just started everything not long ago.
to be honest, i like what i m doing now.
i m not sure if i can survive in what i m doing now. but i know i must, and i know i have what it takes to survive!it is a very great opportunity for me.
Though it's almost a month now since the day i first joined,
still there are so much to learn!!
so many products need to know, and exam to take.
but, good things is that i m learning everyday...I appreciate what i can learn, and what i've learned.
there's a saying:

"The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do"

Yes, life is full of obstacles, difficulties as good ending doesn't come without any tough challenges.
sometimes we might face some people who likes telling us what we CANNOT do...well, that shall not stop us from trying what we think is right.
Instead of doubting in ur own self, why not we stand up and tell them "WATCH ME!"


Tuesday, October 25, 2011

The Steel Fight!!

Been waiting for this movie for quite some time actually.
it's Hugh Jackman again and he was a great actor!!
perhaps you might see him before in Lipton Ice Tea advertisement,
perhaps you might want to recall back to 2009 whereby he hosting the Emmy Awards,
if you did, you know exactly that he was not just merely an actor.
dancing and singing were his expertise too!

But Real Steel? i barely know what it's all about.
all i know, is Hugh Jackman, so i guess it could be something good and worth watching.

well, the movie is about robotic fight.
my second thought, no wait, though the robots fighting scenes were breathtaking; it was like watching live boxing of 2 giant robots, and that was simply awesome! But what's more about this movie, is that the director put in some emotional scenes in addition to the fights.
emotional and sentimental made the movie even better!

Charlie, Max, and ATOM... they made a great team!!

Robot might not just a robot, they have emotions too..

surprisingly, this kid caught every audiences' attention, leaving a very good impression of this kid. a very intelligent, genius kid!!hope to see more of him in future!
well, if you haven't watch it, get urself a ticket then, it worth your money back ;-)

Thursday, October 13, 2011

I would call that a "blessed trip 2011"

I couldn't belief that i m actually this lucky to have this bunch of friends...
they are simply the best UK mates i could ever have!

Back in May 2011, which is 4 months ago, to be honest with you,
i m worried, i m afraid, i m not sure of what will happen in the next few months, i m not sure if i could cope well with new environment, new course of studies, and new friend.
SO many uncertainties!!!
Out of fears, i choose to go...and 4 months later, found that i m a richer man than i am four months ago!i gained new friendships
friends make the best out of my 4months memories in oversea.

we always do things together, we had our hair cut session together, we play in the rain together, and we always dine together too!!!

4 months in outstation, without Malaysian food... i wonder if i can still survive!?
4 months in outstation, i made my worse intends to have maggi and bread as my meal, take a pack of ready-to-eat rice once in a blue-moon perhaps.

But, i was blessed that i get to take rice for dinner everyday (i been always grateful for that, and i been posting the same thing back in June post)
Eggs for breakfast, sandwich for lunch, and a proper 3 dishes dinner every night.

that's what we do every morning, which is to prepare our lunch box to school...
and i got my duty to do every morning (only if i don't skip class)
i will have to walk along the corridor,knock on every doors, whispering "wake up..wake up..time up...time up..."
keep on whispering until they give me respond "hmmm........."

sometimes, i will get back to my bed after carry out my duty!!
it's so warm hiding inside my blanket and trust me, you won't want to get yourself out of it, ESPECIALLY early in the morning!!
so, preparing lunch box and taking breakfast was kind of a rush everyday!

chen chen is a very nice cooker, the best among us i guess, the chef for us to refer to!
her dad is a chef..
wao..well, now everything make sense right?that's what make her a really "kick ass" cooker here!
dad always told daughter:"you jangan mempersiasuikan saya ya!"
well, all i can say is: "uncle, you trained your daughter very well!!"

every once in awhile, we will have dinner together.
remember we having a hair cut session together for 1 whole evening,
so 1 house cut hair( ya, a hair saloon our kitchen become; me and CJ were the hairstylist of the day), 1 house get the dinner ready. so by the time we finish the hair cut,
the dinner is prepared!! this is how cooperate we are.

Chen always come out with new ideas.
"lets cook chicken chop this week", "lets have bak kut teh next week", "do you guys want to eat nasi lemak?!"
Hence, we got ourselves a very AWESOME Menu to choose what we want to eat!!
and we even got our own home-made "chicken rice"!!

we get to eat "bak kut teh", "herbal chicken" too!!!
oh, i m so starving right now!!
i really like them all, i love them!! they all re very caring person!!
always make sure that everyone gets sufficient portion of food...
No one gets behind!!

in such a cold weather in UK, Tomyam is the best solution.
everyone of us sweat like mother like son!!!but still, we love having tomyam steamboat!!
we don't mind making it weekly...
just the preparation that scares us!!

when i mean chicken chop, it doesn't mean that there will be just a chop on the plate ONLY.
it always come with whole set, with additional side dishes(free loading whenever you finish it as we have plenty left). drinks and dessert were on the list too, which i thought it was way over what we can take!!
so that's why, most of us gained weight!!

Nasi Lemak in UK?!?!possible?! Yup, with my lovely friend, YES, anything you named it you get to eat it!!
rush to buy groceries together after class.
and start working together to get the Nasi Lemak dinner settle ASAP!!

and then, 9-10 of us squeeze into 1 small table...
enjoying our delicious dinner...

so this few weeks when i look at the picture i took during this 4months...
i realized that, it's not about where i've traveled to that leave me a deep, wonderful memories.
it's about all the time I've spent with my friends together that makes the whole 4months study trip even more meaningful!
every now and then when i see all those pictures about all of us doing things together, i smiled.
i m really glad, and i m deeply grateful with what i have there!
though i m budgeted in terms of cash, but God makes me a wealthy person there!


Thursday, October 6, 2011

Steve Jobs Stanford commencement speech 2005

You've got to find what you love, Jobs says

This is a prepared text of the Commencement address delivered by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Good Morning.

What it really means?!?

O-ffers us His
D-evotion to

M-ake us
O-bedient &
R-eady for a
N-ew day with Him.
I-nspire others please, and
N-ever forget
G-od loves you!